One Year Ago.

Wow! What a year this has been. A lot has happened. I'm sure some of you don't really know what I'm talking about so I will explain.
One year ago, I was going through the hardest time of my life. The person who I had been with for 2 years had started to get physically and emotionally abusive, we were on the verge of being homeless, I was getting ready to go to cosmetology school in January... Things were too much to bear. Then on November 22nd, I had enough of everything and broke down. Then I went to the bathroom, took 200 extra strength rapid release tylenol and about 60 famotadine(acid reliever) tablets. I told my boyfriend... not thinking he would do anything considering we had just had a huge fight and he was angry... plus he was at band practice... But about 30 minutes later, the paramedics came knocking on our hotel room door(Home sweet home for us at the time) I was so out of it, I don't remember much. I kept feeling myself going in and out of remembering and not remembering. I don't remember the ambulance ride. I don't remember that I had attempted to slice my wrists before the ambulance got there. I do remember the charcoal I had to take to get all the medicine out of my stomach. I do remember that I had to be on oxygen to have myself become "stabilized". I remember it was really late when I got to the place I would be staying for the next several days. And I remember the noise my stomach was making from the charcoal.
God saved my life that night. That's when I genuinely realized that God has an amazing plan for my life and He's not through with me yet.
God--- I thank you for this amazing life you have given me... Even with it's struggles, You have shown me to see through things and not just look at them. You are so faithful and Your plans are better than any human plan I could come up with. I thank you for the struggles of the past year. They have started to mold me into the woman you want me to be. I pray that I will never forget those moments of struggle and that you will use those moments to strengthen me and my faith. I love you Lord. I pray all of these things in your precious name. Amen.

8 days til my birthday! :)

Bronchitis/Pneumonia adventure.

So for those faithful readers of this blog, I am sorry for my lack of posts. I was EXTREMELY sick for the past two weeks and I'm just now coming out of it.
It all started with this excruciating pain in my neck. I thought maybe I had slept in some odd position(which I have been known to do) But the next day, I woke up and went to work and it was painful to walk because I had pain in my back and my legs were extremely sore and tense. They sent me home early that day so I just kinda took it easy at home. The pain continued over the next several days and I was sleeping pretty much any chance I got. Then one morning, I had to be at work at 6am... But when I woke up, my chest felt very heavy, I was having chest pains and it was hard(and painful) to breathe. I called work at 5:30am and was given a load of crap by the manager on duty. I told her I needed to go to the Emergency room but she just wouldn't let it go. I ended up telling her I wasn't going to be there and she told me I needed to be more "responsible"... Okay ______, I will be more responsible. God--- From this day forward I need to know at least 2 hours in advance of work if I am gonna need to go to the ER. Amen. I understand that maybe I should've called earlier... But I was waiting to see if I could stick it out... then at 5am, it got really bad. So I woke my grandma up and had her take me to the ER. What a woman! :)
At the ER they told me I had bronchitis and pneumonia... gave me an antibiotic and a prescription for codeine to help me sleep. I believe I forgot to mention that I had been coughing A LOT the previous few nights. I missed the next several days of work... But now I'm back. I still hate my job now... maybe even more than I did before. I'm sick of getting pushed to my limits by people who don't like me for whatever reason. I'm sick of unprofessional managers. I'm sick of the guilt trips that I get when I tell them I can't stay later. I'm sick of crying at work everyday. I'm sick of it all. I need something better... School will be done soon enough I hope.

Captivating.

In the past 5 or 6 years, I have read the book "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldredge about 5 or 6 times. And I always learn something new. Something new about being the woman of God that I have been created and put on this earth to be. God-Fearing. Beautiful inside and out. Relational. Strong yet able to collapse in my Father's arms. Women are not meant to be hard as rocks and tough as nails. We are meant to be this kind hearted, soft and loving spirit. Now that's not saying we don't have the right to voice our opinion. I'm just saying there are too many Christian woman out there who put up this tough exterior... me being one of them... But I've come to realize by reading and listening to this book as many times as I have, that God didn't create women to be "hard" in the core. Yes, we can be strong women... But so many women are hard in the core and that's not who God created us to be. Yes, we need to guard our hearts. But that doesn't mean women should push people away. I know way too many girls who push people away who care about them solely cuz they are afraid of getting hurt. In the end, God created us to be relational because HE is relational. We were created in HIS image. He desires an intimate relationship with us just like women desire relationship with family, friends, a significant other, co-workers etc.
But anyways, away from my pulpit now. lol. McDonalds has gotten extremely bad. And it's all gone downhill very rapidly. I get called stupid at work on an almost daily basis. And a lot of other people are treated like dirt as well. To say the least, God is really testing my patience. The other day, I almost didn't go back after my break cuz my job isn't even worth it to me anymore. I love working and making money, but when I go home crying almost everyday, that's where I draw the line. I have several friends at work who feel the same way. One of them is quitting in February. And the others are hoping to quit sooner than that. I'm hoping to finish school in January so that way I can get outta there before I'm stuck there by myself.
I played my wii today... it was kinda awkward cuz Austin's characters were still on there. I can't pull myself to delete them just yet. Trying to keep the good memories alive and keep all the bitterness away. But with time, the characters will disappear.
My dating fast is going pretty well. I'm just torn in a few different areas. But that's the whole point of this. I haven't given every part of my life to God. He would always get MOST of it... But there were always areas I held things back... which is kinda dumb because God knows everything... but I digress. I'm learning to give EVERY part of my life to Him cuz He knows the final pieces to the puzzle of my life. And let me tell ya, this time has been a very humbling experience. He's showing me how much I depend on Him for EVERYTHING. And since I started this dating fast, my hours have gone up at work. My grades have gone up in school(more time to focus) and life is improving dramatically.
Wow. This was a very long winded blog. I guess I just had a lot on the dome that I needed to put out there. Well hope everyone who actually reads all this has a great couple days... til I write again :)
In His Grip,
Jackie

21.

So in about a month and a half, I will be the big 2-1. To me, that seems INSANE that I will be COMPLETELY legal... not just 3/4 legal like I've been for the past 2.5 years. I look back and think how fast the past few years have gone and it seems like I just turned 18 and was still in high school. Now I'm getting ready to be a full blown adult. That's NUTS!
So lately, my future has really been crossing my mind. I've been doing quite well in the Pharmacy Technician program I'm enrolled in... But what will I do when I'm done with that? I'm always wanting to expand my horizons and learn tons of new stuff... I'm your typical sponge... just soaking up everything I can. But anyways, I'm thinking about going to a four-year university. I have some ideas of where I would want to go... It's just a matter of putting it all into action :)
My dating fast is in full swing... and let me tell ya, I don't know why I didn't do this sooner. I feel soooo focused. I have no guys holding me back... and the guys I do have in my life are the best and keep pushing me forward, challenging me and holding me accountable. I'm only 4 days into it, yes... But that's 4 days longer than what it would be had I not decided to do this. 361 more days... But who's counting? lol. But seriously though, since I committed to doing this, God has really been by my side... cheering me on if you will. I feel so blessed to be sensitive to what God is telling me to do... and what God is telling my friends to tell me :)

Stress.

So the past few days have been extremely stressful.
First off, I made plans to make a trip down to Illinois to see my best friend at school. I had made a trip down there recently but didn't stop and see her... So I decided to make a quick trip down there on my days off to see her. I missed her too much and she missed me so it seemed perfect. 2 hours of driving went by without any problems... just a little bit of Chicago-rush hour-bumper to bumper traffic. No biggie. Then I get off on the exit for I-80... Boom, flat tire. I call my friend... She calls a friend to take her to come help me put my spare on and get to Olivet in one piece. She comes with her friend, tire gets changed and we start our journey. About 10 miles or so later, the tire feels like it's driving funny and may be flat... So we stop at a gas station to air up the spare tire. I trust Caroll with the job... but too much air equals a broken spare tire :( We went through two tires in one night. We called her friend back and had him come get us from the gas station and take us back to campus.
The next day. Chapel. Class. Running and looking for tires... only to realize later that my rim was so damaged beyond repair that they couldn't put a new tire on without a rim. We were running on limited time as well, because Caroll had plans to go to Chicago and see Lion King. Luckily we find a TIRE AND A RIM FOR $40.
I guess my whole point of all this rambling is that I'm learning about God's faithfulness. He never gives us more than we can handle. And He knows what we need before we even ask. Truth is, throughout the day, I had been praying that God would keep the expenses under $50... He was faithful and everything only cost me $40 and I made it home in one piece... just in time for work... and it was homecoming. lol

6 months at a time.

So from this day forward, October 7th 2010, I'm making a vow with God (with my best friend Caroll holding me accountable) to go on a dating fast for AT LEAST 6 months... I'm striving for a year. I just am realizing how much I long for more of God in my life and that I need to draw nearer to Him instead of drawing close to men. God will bless me with a wonderful man someday who follows Him and is faithful. And until that day I need to ready myself. I've needed all of this for a long time. I guess I'm really realizing HOW MUCH I do.

Love is in the Air

What do you prefer when you get into a relationship?
1- Would you rather have a fun fling or a lasting relationship?	Definitely a lasting relationship
2- What was your longest relationship?	3 years... off and on.
3-What is your favorite personality trait?	If he can make me laugh and smile... even when I'm at my lowest points.
4- What is the most romantic thing a significant other could do?	Send me flowers.
5- When you are dating someone, what is the most important thing to you?	Honesty and Trust
6- Do you like pet names (ex: baby, sweetheart...)?	Ehhh... Not to fond of them... But I'm not totally against them.
7- What is your ideal night out with a significant other?	I don't care what we do just as long as we're together.
8- What is your ideal night in with a significant other?	??? Didn't I just answer this.
9- Would you be able to tell someone you love them, even if you didn't feel it?	It's difficult to do that... I've felt guilty for doing that.
10- Do you like relationships that invovle serious commitments?	YESSSSS!!!
11- If you ever got engaged, how would you want it to happen?	I definitely don't wanna expect it. Just something romantic.
12- If you were engaged, would you want a wedding as soon as possible?	Depends on how long we've been together and where we are at in our lives.
13- Do you like to talk about the future when in a serious relationship?	Ohhh yes. It's important to make sure you are on the same page.
14- Do you prefer a sensitive open relationship or a strong silent type?	Sensitive and Open.
15- When in a relationship do you have to have contact with your partner on a daily basis?	It's very nice... but I'm pretty adaptable.
16- Do you like public displays of affection?	Holding hands is nice but anything more than that is trashy.
17- Is there anything you won't tolerate while in a relationship?	Lying, cheating, the usual... lol
18- What is one thing that you value most in a relationship?	Those intimate conversations that you don't share with anyone... the kind where you share your heart and they give it back in return.
19- Would you ever be able to handle a long-distance situation?	Done it before... I could totally do it again. People make it seem harder than it really is. You learn if your hearts really in it or not :)
20- Do you believe in moving in together before engagement or marriage?	I wouldn't do it until we were married. Lived with a guy before marriage before and it made it fall apart quicker.
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I am TRAUMATIZED FOR LIFE!!!

So I was on Netflix yesterday and was looking under spoofs and things like that... And I found what seemed to be a spoof of Twilight. Well, it is a spoof of Twilight, but not exactly the spoof I was looking for... Unless you consider a SPOOF to be a moderate form of pornography/incest/disgusting excuse for a movie. I watched it for 10 whole minutes, stopped it and deleted it outta my instant queue. It looks like it was made by a bunch of high schoolers with a video camera.

The thing that disappoints me most tho is that netflix actually has a movie like this on their site... I can't imagine how many high school kids will end up looking for a spoof of Twilight and wind up watching this filth. And by filth, I mean that Stella's(Bella)father has an incest relationship with her, masturbates over her as she has a "sex dream" about Edgar(Edward), the constant sexual innuendos... And that's about as far as I got... Ohhh yeah and the movie starts out with a guy taking a dump in the woods. I should've known from the minute I saw that to turn the movie off... And I should've known by the NAME of the movie that it was gonna be disgusting filth only a high school boys brain coulda come up with.

Annnnnyways.... Just needed to vent and get that out.

yahyahyah!

I GOT A 100% ON A QUIZ FOR PHARMACY TECH SCHOOL TODAY!!! YEEEEEE!! :)) I am soooo proud of how I am doing in the program!! I have a 90% overall! I'm just so ready to not go to McDonalds ever again. The funny thing is I have loved McDonalds since I was a kid. I've had enough of them to the point where I don't know if I could ever set foot in another one after I quit. I've contemplated getting a job somewhere else for the time being... But then I remember, there's really no point... Just gotta suck it up there for another 5 months and then I will be done with school and I can do what I wanna do... And make better money doing so. :)

So I was thinking the other day(I know what you're thinking, Jackie, woah, stop before you hurt yourself...am I right?) I was thinking about Twilight. I watched a video of one of my all-time favorite pastors talking about the Twilight series(and the plethora of other vampire love stories out nowadays) and he was basically BASHING the Twilight books. Here's my question... Did he actually READ the books? The books are NOT bad... The only time the books become bad are when they become your idol and your sole focus... When you start putting God aside in order to worship these amazing books :) lol. Or if you start believing in vampires, witchcraft and such. Therefore, I have decided that I will continue to read the Twilight Saga... and watch the movies. :)

My best friend is going back to college soon and this makes me sad. Happy cuz she's happy but I don't want her to leave... Caroll, pack me with your stuff and seclude me in your dorm all year... Your school will NEVER know :) I will do my school while I'm there and everything will work out... Yes I have thought this over. lol.

About Me survey. I got bored. lol

Basics:
Name:	Jaklyn E. Tighe
Date of Birth:	November 30, 1989
Birthplace:	Burlington WI (Burlington Memorial Hospital)
Current Location:	Burlington WI (Laying in my bed)
Eye Color:	Hazel
Hair Color:	Brownish-Auburn
Height:	5'5.5"
Heritage:	Irish and German
Piercings:	Nose and ears.
Tattoos:	Chinese symbol for "Joy" on my left shoulder blade.
Favourite:
Band/Singer:	Ohhh goodness... Death Cab for Cutie, Linkin Park, Skillet, RED, Miley Cyrus, Owl City, Katy Perry, Theory of a Deadman, Staind, The Script, Republic Tigers, Group 1 Crew, Buckcherry, Jason Derulo, Imogen Heap... Just to name a few :)
Song:	"Bulletproof" by La Roux or "I Will Possess Your Heart" by Death Cab for Cutie.
Movie:	"The Green Mile"
Disney Movie:	"Lion King"
TV show:	Teen Mom, Hannah Montana, NASCAR, Friends, Family Guy
Color:	Pink or Black
Food:	PIZZA!!!
Pizza topping:	Cheese... Or EXTRA PINEAPPLE!! :) MMMMMMM!!
Ice-Cream Flavor:	Either plain vanilla or chocolate chip cookie dough.
Drink (alcoholic):	Hynotiq mixed with Tahitian Treat... My own recipie.
Soda:	Fresca
Store:	Wal-Mart or Hot Topic.
Clothing Brand:	Idk... I'm not too picky.
Shoe Brand:	^^See above.
Season:	Late Spring-Early Summer && Late Summer-Early Fall.
Month:	November... MY BIRTHDAY!!
Holiday/Festival:	My birthday
Flower:	Gerbera Daisies.
Make-Up Item:	Mascara
Board game:	It's not really a board game but I absolutely LOVE Apples to Apples.
This or That
Sunny or rainy:	Sunny
Chocolate or vanilla:	Vanilla
Fruit or veggie:	Fruit
Night or day:	Night
Sour or sweet:	Sweet
Love or money:	Love
Phone or in person:	In person
Looks or personality:	Personality
Coffee or tea:	Coffee
Hot or cold:	Hot
Your:
Goal for this year:	Get as close as possible to finishing school.
Most missed memory:	Having someone love me as much as I love them.
Best physical feature:	Eyes.
First thought waking up:	I gotta go pee! lol
Hypothetical personality disorder:	OCD!!
Preferred type of plastic surgery:	Breast reduction and tummy tuck. lol
Sesame street alter ego:	??? Idk... lol
Fairytale alter ego:	Lol. Wow I'm dumb.
Most stupid remark:	I tend to ask dumb questions when I'm upset... I will combine that into one category. lol
Worst crime:	.......
Greatest ambition:	Fall in passionate and romantic love and start my family and live happily ever after.
Greatest fear:	Not falling in love and living happily ever after.
Darkest secret:	You think I'm gonna share that.
Favorite subject:	Music/Art.
Strangest received gift:	A pig that oinks "Jingle Bells"... lol
Worst habit:	Biting my nails.
Do You:
Smoke:	Used to... Not anymore.
Drink:	Occaissionally.
Curse:	Occaissionally
Shower daily:	Yes.
Like thunderstorms:	Yes YES YEEEEESSSS!!!
Dance in the rain:	All the time!!
Sing:	All the time!!
Play an instrument:	I wanna learn to play acoustic guitar.
Get along with your parents:	My mom, yes. My dad and I do not speak.
Wish on stars:	Sometimes.
Believe in fate:	Ehhh... Kinda, I guess.
Believe in love at first sight:	Not so much.
Can You:
Drive:	Yes.
Sew:	No.
Cook:	Kinda.
Speak another language:	I can understand a tiny bit of Spanish but I can't speak it myself.
Dance:	Not really... But I have "Learn how to Ballroom Dance" on my bucket list.
Sing:	I like to think so.
Touch your nose with your tongue:	Nope
Whistle:	Not really.
Curl your tongue:	Yes.
Have You Ever:
Been Drunk:	Many times.
Been Stoned/High:	Yes.
Eaten Sushi:	No.
Been in Love:	Yes.
Skipped school:	Yes.
Made prank calls:	Yes.
Sent someone a love letter:	Yes.
Stolen something:	Yes.
Cried yourself to sleep:	Yes.
Other Questions:
What annoys you most in a person?	Complete ignorance for the other persons feelings/desires.
Are you right or left handed?	Right.
What is your bedtime?	I don't have one.
Name three things you can't live without:	1. God 2. Friends 3. My cell phone or my internet. lol
What is the color of your room?	White.
Do you have any siblings?	Nope
Do you have any pets?	Nope
Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars?	Nah.
What is you middle name?	Elizabeth
What are you nicknames?	Jackie, Jak, Jakerlinda, Jaybaybay, Jay, Putz... etc.
Are you for or against gay marriage?	Against.
What are your thoughts on abortion?	Pass
Do you have a crush on anyone?	Yes
Are you afraid of the dark?	No
How do you want to die?	Peacefully in my sleep when I'm old.
What is the largest amount of popsicles that you have eaten on one day?	Prolly 3 or 4
Would you take a bullet for the one you love?	In a second!! :)
What is the last law you’ve broken?	Speeding.
In a Member of the Opposite Sex:
Hair color:	Doesn't matter
Eye color:	Doesn't matter.
Height	I prefer taller than me... But if they're my height, it's cool too.
Weight	Average.
Most important physical feature:	Eyes.
Biggest turn-off	Being self centered.
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I've Come to a Realization.

Okay. So over the past 3 years, I have pretty much lived in what I like to call a "love bubble". Now what is a love bubble you ask? A love bubble is when you fall so crazy, madly, passionately(and sometimes psychotically) in "love" with someone that you forget or lose track of who you truly are. I feel like over the past 3 years, I have purposefully changed myself to fit to what someone elses idea of what love is. I abandoned my morals, I changed many aspects of my personality, I even let someone manipulate and take advantage of me when I always swore to myself that none of these things would happen. That the person I was gonna be with would love me no matter what and I wasn't gonna change for any boy. Well, you see how long that lasted. I was crazy, head over heels for this boy for THREE LONG YEARS... But I've come to realize after A LOT of time praying and meditating in thought on all this... A guy will love me someday, despite the baggage I have... whether I wear makeup or not... whether I cry in sappy movies... he will love the sound of both my talking and my singing voice... He will understand my love of Hannah Montana... He won't want me to change ANYTHING cuz he will love me with all my "flaws". Someday things will be different. I'm happy that everything is turning around. For sooooo long, I lost track of who I was. I couldn't let loose for the fear of being a weirdo in front of his friends. Now I take pride in who I am... I laugh and make jokes about stuff the way I used to. I'm not afraid to let go and just have fun.

I think I finally have the majority of my life back :)

Koalarollella :)

^^ I thought I would share my creative new nickname for my best friend. It combines 3 of her nicknames... Koala, Cake roll and Carollella. :) She sits there and calls me psychotic... But I like it and it's unique to me. There ya go!So I am FINALLY enrolled in college. I'm enrolled in the Pharmacy Technician program through Gatlin Education... And Gatlin goes through McHenry County College... And it's all online :) I can't wait to get started. Gotta my books first tho. They said the books will be shipped in 24-48 hrs. I'm getting sad that my best friend is leaving for college again here before too long. It will be great that I get to make the trip one weekend a month to go see her... But I'm not gonna get to see her everyday or every week. I will miss my Koalarollella :)Well Caroll wants me to get off of here and watch Nick and Norahs Infinite Playlist with her before bed so I guess I will do that :)Goodnight Loves

skype

I love skype... I am now an addicted skype-er... skype-ette... skype-eee... idk what you would call me. But I love skype. Add me. :) Talk to me. I'm cool. Actually I can be kinda lame. But my best friend loves me... And we like play-doh... and skittles and starburst... And random late night video phone chats on skype.

Right now she is talking about coffee... Coffee is awesome. She wants to own a coffee shop someday and if she does, I will be there EVERYDAY of my life :) I have lots of cream and sugar in mine tho which some people say isn't really coffee at all... :/

I bought a camera when I got paid... Not the exact one I wanted but its AMAZING nonetheless. It's a 12MP Kodak Easy Share :) I'm amazed with the picture quality. I will have to put some on here sometime.

I'm gonna start a video blog on youtube sometime soon cuz I don't always have time to type my ideas. But I have all the time in the world to make random videos documenting my random and somewhat uneventful life.

I also plan to expand on my bucket list soon. It's lacking. I only have 5 things...

1. Fall in deep and passionate love with the man of my dreams.

2. Succeed in whichever career path I choose to pursue.

3. Have beautiful babies someday :)

4. Go to Ireland and Australia

5. Learn Ballroom Dance.

I've realized lately how much of a kid at heart I am. I love such simple things. Bubbles, play-doh, coloring and drawing, playing on playground equipment... etc.

[bulletproof]

So it's been almost a month since I last wrote in here. Annnd an awful lot has happened. To catch you up on everything.

**I was totally gonna move to MO in the middle of August, but over the past couple of days, I have seen that that's not the best idea in the world. No job. No definite place to live. No money saved. Yeah. Epic fail.

**Austin and I stopped talking. Then started talking again within 24 hrs. He hated me and wanted me to die. Then he was totally willing to talk to me again. :/ (???) Now we talk once a week.

**I'm getting ready to go to online school for Pharmacy Technician. :)

** 4 months from today... MY BIG 21st BIRTHDAY!!! :)

** I'm taking up photography deeper than I ever have before. Next time I get paid(the 3rd) I'm getting a camera I've been wanting from Wal-Mart.

** I have been listening to LOTS of music!!

** Working at McDonalds totally sucks... But it's a job nonetheless.

** I'm a total spaz at times :)

** Live. Laugh. Love. *heart*

** My Wii is incredible. I need Call of Duty :)

** I'm gonna be totally bummed when summer is over.

** KGB is totally awesome and I wish they wouldn't charge for their services.

A lot for a month!! But it's amazing :)

before work.

Just a quick post before I subject myself to the everyday torture of being a mcslave. lol. So my cousins are in town and I took them up to the the torture chamber (aka McDeath) for lunch and so I could pick up my check after we were done eating. My check was absolutely horrible... especially since I had to give half of it to my grandma. Blah... But ya gotta do whatcha gotta do I guess... Just cuts into my saving to move back to MO. I will prolly be going in the middle of August so that still gives me a little bit of time to save yet... But not much in the whole scheme of things... About 3 or 4 more checks depending on if I choose to stay til the beginning of September... Which I might do to save some extra money. I guess we shall see.

That's really about all that is going on in my life... Boring I know... But such is life at times.

ajh;lkgha;kjhakhak;jhbgkh

^^ That title is meant to express my anger towards John Tighe right now. The reason I am not calling him "dad" is because he is no longer a part of my life. It needed to happen and today was just the icing on the cake. I didn't do anything wrong and he decides to take my sim card outta my phone and cancel the service. He's angry at stuff that happened several years ago... some stuff happened recently but it's nothing to cancel your daughters cell phone plan. I told him point blank "If you want me to remain in your life, you won't take the sim card outta my phone cuz this is just senseless drama and I don't need that in my life." He took the sim card... I said peace out. Now when I do get a phone, he will not get the number. He doesn't deserve it. I told him his actions had consequences and he was apparently cool with it so whatev.

ANYWAYS!! lol. Other than that, life has been good to me. Good chance I'm moving back to MO to get an apartment with my best friend and her bf. I'm pretty excited but I'm still figuring everything out. We found an amazing apartment that we are pursuing :) Can't WAIT!!!! :)

So I wanna get another tattoo soon. Idk what I would get. Ideas?? Please?? Plus I need ideas for some new games for my wii. I already have Wii Sports Resort and Karaoke Revolution. I haven't had my wii for too long but I need some new games cuz I get bored with these ones really easily.

So I've decided that I wanna start learning how to play acoustic guitar. I LOVE music and I wanna be able to write my own stuff and that's one way I can start. I have some lyrics in safe keeping for when I get a guitar... I can actually put them to music... tweek em up a bit... maybe record them somehow... who knows?! :) I just need more stuff to occupy my time.

Well, time for sleep. :) Night!

my first post.

So I'm catching up with the times and making one of these internet journaling blog thingys. lol. I might write in this alot... but then again, time might catch up with me and I won't. I have a pretty busy life. I mean, come on now. I work at Mickey D's man!! Can't beat that kind of busy. lol.

So I've been thinking lately about starting a Scentsy candle business for extra dough. Mc's just doesn't bring in enough especially when I got a lot to be saving for. Scentsy is kinda like Mary Kay or Avon... only it's these flameless candles. Interesting huh? I love candles and I wanna learn how to make my own. Maybe start a hobby of it. Who knows? lol.

So I'm almost 21 years old(4 1/2 months!! Woo!!) and I still have not set foot in college. Partially cuz I have absolutely NO idea what I would really want to study. I get all these ideas... then they just kinda fade with time. I was enrolled in cosmetology school but that failed cuz I got admitted to the hospital not even 12 hrs before classes began in January(long story). I wanna study something meaningful... Something I can work with people... Possibly change their lives and make them feel better about themselves. Any suggestions of majors?

So it's getting late and I should be going to bed. Gotta continue reading "The Host" :) Gotta love that book!

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